Three years ago today, our daughters Meret and Annalisa were born and died. Their sister Hope was born and died 2 days earlier. I wasn't sure about writing a post about the anniversaries, but we wouldn't be on this journey if they lived.These three hibiscus are blooming on our patio today. I was struck by this - 3 bright, beautiful flowers that bloom for such a brief time.
As we get closer to completing our adoption, I feel a sense of closure because we are getting closer to finally bringing another child into our family. But, I will always miss our girls - our three little birds.
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Those three flowers are truly beautiful and I am sure that they represent the beauty of your daughters.
As the time is coming to add to your family may the memories live on in your hearts.
Sending hugs and prayer
Sandi
What a beautiful rememberence.
They will forever live on in your hearts.
Darlene
My thoughts and prayers are with you. I look forward to sending you good wishes as you meet your new daughter in Kazakhstan. I never knew life could be so good since Griffin has arrived home with me. Truly, Kazakhstan held my dreams. With warmest wishes, Susan from Austin
Angela,
They are beautiful. I think it is Hope, Meret and Annalisa's way of showing you that though life moves on, the beauty of love stays with you to comfort you; just little signs that they are always with you, even as you move forward with your lives and prepare for the joy of a new child. Wishing for you peace in your hearts and comfort in memories.
Heidi
Angela,
Your hibiscus are beautiful. Remember Hope, Meret and Annalisa right here with you today. Wishing it were a different kind of week but knowing it's not, I hope you find peace in remember your girls.
I have never seen anyone else write that they remember their "3 little birds". That's what I call Hannah, Ryan and Abby. For me, it comes from the Bob Marley song "Three Little Birds" which I played every day while I was pg with them. Although everything did not turn out alright with their pg, I still hold that song dear to my heart. do you know it?
Anyway-be gentle with yourself as you remember your girls. Having brought Laura into the world safely has helped me feel less punched in the gut and I do feel more complete. I hope the same is true for you and your Saskia.
(((hugs)))
April
You're right—those three precious little girls are very much a part of your journey. My thoughts and prayers are with you during this bittersweet anniversary.
Hugs,
Karen
aww Angela, those flowers are beautiful, and i think Hope, Meret and Annalisa's way of saying it's ok to move on, Mom, we are angels.
I can't imagine getting thru that. You are a very strong angel yourself Ms. Angela...maybe that is why are you an angel with an added A for AMAZING. :)
That is a BEAUTIFUL tribute - and you are AMAZING to come through all of that and still decide to continue on and adopt a child. Hugs and prayers for your girls and all of you.
Oh, that means so much Angela. I have an affinity for hibiscus and I think that is the most beautiful photo. Your girls are in my thoughts today.
Love, Shannon
Angela, I am sorry I am a day late on this. Know that I think of Hope, Meret and Annalisa often as part of my "online" family. A bond many, thankfuly, cannot understand. You have been such a support to me after loosing my triplets. I pray you have a peaceful week and know your girls are being remembered.
A beautiful and touching tribute to your daughters, Angela. I'm so sorry you suffered their loss, but they will remain in your heart forever. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family this week.
Your Kaz daughter is waiting for you. I wish you joy and celebration in that precious young life that will join with yours very soon.
Alysa
That is such a beautiful picture... and to think that it was taken right there at your home!?! Those flowers are definitely a special tribute to your daughters. I'm glad you shared with us that it was a memorial time for your family. So many people have lost babies (and children or other loved ones) and I know your sharing and ability to see the beauty despite the pain of that loss is an inspiration to many.
{{{hugs}}}
Angela, I can only imagine how hard must be for you. I know they will always be in your heart and their memory will live forever. I hope you will soon hold in your arms your little baby from Kazakhstan and your life will definetely change. Your courage is inspiring for many mothers. Thinking of you.
What beautiful flowers... What a wonderful way to remember your girls. Memories can be a wonderful thing. Embrace the beauty.
You are in my thoughts...
Tracy
Beautiful flowers, beautiful babies, beautiful tribute. Thank you for sharing.
Like the beautiful hibiscus, your daughters bloomed in your life briefly, but their beauty will continue to resurface in your lives and live in your heart forever. Now you are just adding to your garden. What a beautiful way to remember them.
I am so sorry for your loss, and that it has to be part of your journey. Not to say that of the journey itself as I'm sure it will bring you great joy. (Not to mention if you hadn't started it, I would never have met you, and selfishly I've very glad you came down this road.) But I am sorry for the pain and the loss of your daughters that initiated this path.
The hibiscus are beautiful- one of my very favorite flowers. I love how all three are blooming so vibrantly. What a sign.
You know - when we almost lost Noah (did you know that?) we came home from Russia devastated. It was late October and everything had died. The next morning we walked to our backyard and noticed some purple flowers (no idea the name, not a flower person) were vibrant and blooming in the garden. We bought the flowers from a fellow Russia mom as part of a fundraiser. A significant sign to me because at the time I was lost. We now call them our Russian flowers.
I can empathize with your need for closure. After just receiving some much needed closure in our adoption story the immediate pain goes away but we will never forget. Children lost will always be part of our hearts.
Hugs!
Kim
The flowers are beautiful as is the rememberence of your 3 little ones! What a loss you have had and now you are feeling a sense of closure. I do see things like your 3 flowers as little signs. Of course they will always remain in your heart!
It's wonderful that you are getting closer and closer to bringing another child home!!
Hugs,
Eileen
Angela, thank you for sharing the story of your girls with us -- I have admired your strength from the moment I discovered your blog, as you've shared stories of them before. We hope that having this blogging community brings you comfort during your toughest times, knowing that many on this same journey have also suffered loss in the past. And, this blogging community is also so fantastic during times of joy! You have been so supportive of us, and we cannot wait to do the same for you. We are out here cheering you on, and sending prayers your way that you will soon have a joyous addition to your family.
I don't know why I just now saw this - I would have written immediately. Those beautiful flowers are no coincidence - I know that because every year on the anniversary of his passing, at age 2, my brother would send the most amazing rose blooms - more beautiful than any other. Your little ones are sending you their love with that sign, and what a beautiful one it is. Trudi
Three beautiful flowers for three beautiful little birds with three beautiful names.
I am in awe.
Lots of love,
Regina
Angela,
I send thoughts of you and God's blessings your way. Nothing is more precious than a child and to go through the loss of three beautiful girls is unimaginable to me. You have great strength. They will always remain a very important and special part of your life--thank you for sharing that with us.
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